So, I'm feeling rather inspirational tonight and I'm in a really happy mood for some reason, so I thought I'd share some of my personal outlooks on life. I USUALLY have these, but just like anyone, I go through down periods of sorrow due to depression.
Before we get into my preaching of positivity, I'd like to take the moment to update you all on our dear friend in the hospital. She seems to be doing A LOT better. Opened her eyes today, but still not awake. They were able to keep her off sedation all day, and the antibiotics are working slowly but surely. It's all we know for now, aside from the fact that her ECG was NORMAL. Which is amazing news given what she has.
But anyways! Let's get on with my happy and sappy post, and hopefully it'll at least provide positive feels for at least one person.
Let's start with how I personally look at life.
For the longest time, I was negative. I used to be the person who'd be called "Negative Nelly" but in return would counter with, "I'm not negative, I'm just a realist". This is not true. There are still some things that I will think realistically about, and not negatively, but most of the time I'm just happy. It took me a long time, but I finally realized something: Everything REALLY does happen for a reason, and I've been experiencing that first hand. I'd always be told that after dark days, would come a rainbow but I never agreed. I'd been so far down, and just didn't think it was possible. Now, however, I see that as truth. Getting my disability of POTS and all of the other things that happened at that point in time, allowed me to really examine my life and realize the direction I wanted to go with schooling. Not only that, but it got me INTO the college I always wanted to go to.
SERIOUSLY. THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. YOU JUST HAVE TO TRUST THAT EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY. REALLY. IT GETS BETTER.
Out of all of this, came my lovely little saying and motto that I personally live by DAILY.
"IF IT HAPPENS, IT HAPPENS AND WAS MEANT TO BE. IF IT DOESN'T, IT DOESN'T AND WASN'T FOR ME."
I've wasted too many hours of my life worrying about what could be and what might not be, and realized that negativity really just takes too much energy. I try to be happy about everything, and I'm trying to help others see this.
Such as waiting in the doctor's office. If they're running behind (and trust me, they will be, they always do), my mom gets really upset and starts grumbling. I keep telling her, "Why? Why grumble? Why feel so upset? It's not going to change anything. It's just how things are. It takes more energy to be upset, than to just not care".
We spend too much time worrying about things that aren't important, and getting upset over doing taxes, or paying bills... The thing is, while it IS stressful, it's a part of life. It's not something you can change, and I think that you should try your best to just be HAPPY with what you have. You can't change how stupid insurance can be sometimes, or the fact that you pay bills. These are really just facts of life, things that you won't ever be able to avoid (unless you go totally nomad and just live off the land, wandering freely without any care in the world, but I know that's not the choice of most. Haha. But there's nothing wrong with any life style.).
I think, and this is my personal opinion, you should just let it go! Understand that these things are there, and won't change (unless by some miracle they do), and just accept it. You'd be much happier, and less stressed.
I still have yet to figure out how to be happy about going to work... But I do my best to find little things that make me smile there, when I had a job. It really got me through the day, and also thinking about what I had too and what this job would bring me.
I think that if the world was a little more positive in the way we thought, that people might actually be HAPPIER.
But that's just my personal opinion, so I'll get off my soap box and stop preaching. Haha.
I hope you all have a good night, and are well~
- Rosie
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